I grew up with a best friend. We were a pair for many years. Bernadette was her name. "Bernadette and Marlene", it rolled off of peoples lips like "Cake and ice cream." We did crazy stuff, like stealing bobby Darins towel when he was appearing on Steel Pier in Atlantic City. We drifted apart somewhat in our late teens, because Caroline always went for the "badboy" image and that was never for me. But we never lost touch with each other. Bernadette died ten years ago. She lost both of her sons.....one to the state prison and one to asthma. And she later died of a broken heart. I know thats what killed her. She mourned those two kids so fiercely.
Consequently, I was always close to her mother. After Bernadette passed away, her mother became dependent on Bernadette husband. She stayed on with him because she really had no other place to go. But I never felt comfortable with the arrangement. I never really cared for him. Just kind of tolerated him. Even when Bernadette was living. I continued to visit her at his home. I never forgot her on her birthday or Christmas.
After his wife died, he built a house back in the woods where he could have his animals. And I would have to go back there to visit her. She began to tell me things that were very uncomfortable. I laid awake many nights worrying about her. He could do away with her and no one would be the wiser. My visits became less and less. Until I have not been there for 6 years. I didn't plan it that way, something kept telling me "Stay away." But I sent her birthday and Christmas Cards every year. She would be in her late 80's now and I don't even know if she is still living. I want so bad to pick up the phone and call him and ask if she is still living, if she still remembers me. Her birthday is coming up in a few days and I just don't know what to do. I sent her a Christmas card and got no reply. You'd think he would let me know. I just cannot bring myself to call and ask him. What do I do?
TY for inviting me. Welcome to J-Land. Be sure on every comment you leave people, that you leave your link so you can build up some readers! Also, on your side bar, you have 'other journals', but not your 'last 10 entries'. You might want to add that also, just a suggestion.
ReplyDeleteHave a good remainder of the wkend.
Hugz,
Sugar
Call him Marlene. He can't eat you through the phone and at least you would know. She may be in a nursing home where you could visit her. If she has passed on, then you could put your mind to rest about that also. Make the call is my advise. Let me know how it comes out.
ReplyDeleteHugs, Joyce
How about having someone call for you?
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